The Godly Gazette (I Was a Drug Addict)

I Was a Drug Addict

I was a Drug Addict . . .

........ for 31 years. I started smoking cigarettes and drinking at age twelve. Within a year, I was smoking marijuana, and by age fifteen I was doing any kind of drug I could get my hands on. By this time, I had become a daily user, which led me into selling the drugs, so I could afford to use them every day.

I always told myself that I liked to get high. I did not see myself as trying to escape from anything, or trying to suppress my feelings. I simply enjoyed the buzz... The party lifestyle. It seemed to me, the only way to live, and it soon became the only way I knew how to live.

My drug of choice was cocaine: powder at first, then rock or crack cocaine. I've been married - and divorced - three times. I have three daughters, one with each woman I married. Throughout the course of my addiction, I managed to destroy every relationship I've ever had, my daughters included. I've been in and out of jail numerous times. I could not hold a job and was always struggling financially.

I was doing anything I could think of to support my habit: selling drugs, shoplifting, burglary, writing bad checks, bank fraud, stealing from family, friends, and even other drug dealers, just to mention a few. The mind of an addict can come up with all kinds of deceiptful and illegal ways of getting cash.

Eventually, I realized that my addictions were causing many problems in my life. However, I did not want to admit that the drugs were causing the problems. And I continued to tell myself that I was using because I enjoyed it. Everything I did was centered around getting high. Whether bowling, golfing, fishing, camping, eating, watching television, etc... I had to get high - before - during - and after, whatever it was that I might be doing.

I tried to quit using several times, but no matter how hard I tried, I always fell back into the addictions. My life was like a yoyo - up and down - up and down. The worst of it was that I actually believed this was normal.

I was lost, hopeless, lonely and depressed. There was an emptiness inside me that could not be filled. And the cycle of my addictions spiraled out of control, as I tried to fill that empty void.

Then one night, I hit rock bottom. I hated my life. I hated myself and what I had become. I had lost my will to live, and was actually thinking of just ending it all, when - out of sheer desperation - I asked God for help.

That was the night He started showing me "The Way" . . . and I made the decision to listen. There was something deep down inside of me, saying - "His Way is The Only Way." Soon after, I attended a church service where I was saved / born again. I prayed with all my heart, confessed my sins, and gave my life to Jesus.

Since then, the Lord has poured out many blessings upon me.
My whole outlook on life has changed. My addiction bondages have been broken, and relationships are being restored. I now have a reason, and purpose to my life.
That empty void in my heart has been filled with God's Love.

The Bible say's in John 3:16 that God loves us so much, He sent His Son to die for us, so that we could have eternal life with Him in Heaven. The Bible also say's you can know for sure that you will go to Heaven when you die. I know - For Sure - I will be in Heaven... How about YOU ? ? ?

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